In Hate

The title actually says it all.
There's actually no purpose in continuing to read this blog entry unless you'd just like to read a rant.

Or mayhap, I'll simply leave my blog at that and leave people to ponder what in hate is.
Some people have told me that I can't possibly hate someone.
They've actually had the audacity to tell me I cannot hate someone!

I wholeheartedly disagree. I even sometimes feel like my caring and humane nature is a handicap in showing some people how worthless they really are.

As easily as people can throw away love, a more treasurable feeling I think than hatred, I'd think they could at least stop and see the rationale behind the statement.

Blah.

Do you ever wonder...

Why no one cares until the last minute?

I've been having my own troubles getting myself together and all the things required for admitting to colleges together. I've missed a lot of opportunities thus far... they're all just passing me by. I have a great shot at getting into Agnes Scott, but we'll see what comes of it.

A couple dilemmas on my plate is financially, I have no means of paying for college... and I won't get HOPE because of my parents. I also haven't gone to visit any colleges.

My mom questioned me the other day, all of the sudden curious about where I stood in my admissions. She simply assumes that I'll get into some great school without having to even put forth the slightest effort and gave me an indignant look when I said, I don't even know if I'll be going to college next year.

Not the slightest bit of help, but the greatest of repercussions. Even after her "rude awakening", the one I'm living, she doesn't take a moment to help. I guess I'll just have to deal with her sporadically riding me when she realizes that deadlines are near and past.

Getting Started

I actually began this blog so that I could subscribe to a few friend's personal blogs, however, I've thought several times about creating one before this time.

A little you should know about me--
The name's Jessica. I'm currently a senior in high school and just the other day I turned 18. Thus far in my meanderings, I've gone to Atlanta to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show. It was amazingly fun (even if there was a party pooper that came along). I also got my tongue pierced. Though it was done two days ago, the swelling is quite impressive.

No, I did not get it for perverse reasons as many people believe. For a few years, now, I've wanted this piercing. Finally, even though my mom doesn't approve, I got it. :]

Also, my boyfriend, Julian, plays a great role in my life. He's taught me so much in the amount of time we've been together. He's not someone I would've ever put myself with (he's Mexican), but since we met he's kept my life beyond interesting.

Now... onward to the question of what I'd like to do with my life. I have absolutely no idea. I'm still flabbergasted constantly at the thought that I'm supposed to be in college within a few months. I am, however, looking at Agnes Scott. I'm not sure how it'll work; I absolutely hate girls, but I suppose it'll be something to get over.

I hope I play my life cards well.